Other world
I went out this evening with a friend from work to see the film Namesake. Two other friends of hers were there also, so we all went to an Indian restaurant afterward. For about 4-5 hours I was in another world.
The film was wonderful -- sensitive, moving, thoughtful, subtle, and so very beautiful. But the best thing of all was the four of us. We all just hit it off immediately. These are the kind of people I feel at home with. It was so much fun talking, so much in common. One writer, two community college nursing instructors, and me; all female, middle-aged, readers, travelers, all on the same page politically, and all with body issues (knee, hip, breast, weight). The two I just met tonight are a couple, married in Canada. My friend from school I've been wondering about, but now I'm sure she must be gay as well. I haven't felt this relaxed and happy with a group of people all these years I've been in Arizona.
Over spring break, visiting with my Florida lesbian friends and their friends, just feeling so drawn to their lifestyle and the lesbian community in Gainesville, I had a sudden inspiration. Maybe I could have my cake and eat it too. Maybe I can let the gay side of me bloom again and still have my loving husband who loves me as I am, whatever that may be. I could be gay here and straight there and not worry about walking any narrow path.
When I was gutsy enough to say that aloud to my Florida friends, they didn't act like I'd lost my mind but remembered someone they knew who spent six months of the year with a man and the other six months with a woman. Omigod is it possible I'm not crazy? Then I spoke it aloud to my two (questionably gay?) woman friends here at work, and they found it very entertaining but not actually loony. I tried it out on the couple I met this evening, too. They seemed quizzical, but then they don't really know me yet.
My head is spinning. Here I am, about to leave here, and now I find people, including myself?
The film was wonderful -- sensitive, moving, thoughtful, subtle, and so very beautiful. But the best thing of all was the four of us. We all just hit it off immediately. These are the kind of people I feel at home with. It was so much fun talking, so much in common. One writer, two community college nursing instructors, and me; all female, middle-aged, readers, travelers, all on the same page politically, and all with body issues (knee, hip, breast, weight). The two I just met tonight are a couple, married in Canada. My friend from school I've been wondering about, but now I'm sure she must be gay as well. I haven't felt this relaxed and happy with a group of people all these years I've been in Arizona.
Over spring break, visiting with my Florida lesbian friends and their friends, just feeling so drawn to their lifestyle and the lesbian community in Gainesville, I had a sudden inspiration. Maybe I could have my cake and eat it too. Maybe I can let the gay side of me bloom again and still have my loving husband who loves me as I am, whatever that may be. I could be gay here and straight there and not worry about walking any narrow path.
When I was gutsy enough to say that aloud to my Florida friends, they didn't act like I'd lost my mind but remembered someone they knew who spent six months of the year with a man and the other six months with a woman. Omigod is it possible I'm not crazy? Then I spoke it aloud to my two (questionably gay?) woman friends here at work, and they found it very entertaining but not actually loony. I tried it out on the couple I met this evening, too. They seemed quizzical, but then they don't really know me yet.
My head is spinning. Here I am, about to leave here, and now I find people, including myself?
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